Finding Myself (In The Midst of Thin Air) (Karla Reyes)
Finding Myself (In The Midst of Thin Air) by Karla Reyes
Finding myself in the midst of thin air,
Do I stay or should I go?
Finding myself in the midst of thin air,
Do I survive or do I thrive?
How do I find myself?
Do I go left?
Do I go right?
Finding myself in the midst of a ‘nowhere…’
What will it be, will be, what has been established,
Has been established.
Finding myself in the midst of ‘chaotic.’ Do I turn left,
Do I turn right? What is this that I’m seeing and feeling?
Finding myself in the midst of thing air, ‘karma’ whispering in my
Ear but my redemption story is so profound that I can’t quite call it karma.
Karma is just a better phrase and word of putting it for the world, but for me?
Bible taught me that what we reap we sow and what we sow we reap and it’s better
To receive than to give. Finding myself in lost for words, this poetry keeps flowing
Through me. What’s going on? One moment I feel like my words are suffocating me and
Then my words are lifting me up? Am I my worst enemy? Finding myself enlarged within
A chaotic belief system within me. Finding myself lost for words and I can’t seem to quite
Catch these words. Finding myself lost for words, is it good or is it evil within me? I think it’s
Great that I’m acknowledging the fact that I need God in order to survive this thing we keep
Mentioning as ‘life.’ *Ring Ring Ring Ring* it’s the sound of enthusiasm arising. It’s the
Sound of someone that loves me calling me. What is that? I try my best to disguise the
Sensation of speaking a new language of love called God to someone that keeps calling out
My name. Their love for me is evident of a change of events. Will they be my positive change
Or will they be my next chaos? Please Lord, good Lord, save me from wanting to find out
So much about myself that I lose sight of You and Your Triune self. Call me crazy, or call me
Finding myself. It’s crazy to want to change lives with mere words, but at the same time it’s
Not that crazy that I’m trying to find myself lost for words. Do I go live about this or do I just
Stay hidden? Countless of lives needing what I have to give? Sounds phenomenal yet so
Mentally exhausting. But it has its rewards. Finding myself. Looking outside through the
Windows of my old home, wondering if when time passed by I was stuck in mental
Imagination waiting to come out. Is it my time to spread my wings and fly or is it my time to
Create a positive move that reflects the energy and movement of my body as it worships a
Being more larger than my words can grasp. Is that you God? Or is it just me standing before
My eyes. So fragile and delicate, yet so powerful in reassurance and empathy. I tell myself no
More bitterness. I try to deny who I am but it seems no one seems to care to reach a hand.
Darkness all around my soul. Will I be freed from this or just another slave to the system?
My body, mind, soul, heart aches for a living God to lift me into eternity. “I’m ready to go
Home,” I try to tell myself and this God of mine but it seems He’s just not listening to me utter
This so the mere fact I keep breathing and enjoying life just shows to me that He’s filled with
Surprises. What is it about my God’s love for me that keeps me going? Well the fact I’m trying
To find who I am and who He is to me and guess what? I found myself in God and the more
Closer I get to Him, I taste a touch of heaven.
I found myself in the intellectual process of His existences and I shall and will continue to do so.
Thin air, thin air, thin air.
Selah & Shalom
Description(s):
‘Thin air, thin air, thin air’ -life in its vast form. Intellectually woven into thin air. Crafted for His glory and His use alone.
Part (01)
Thin Air, Thin Air, Thin Air by Karla Reyes
‘Thin air, thin air, thin air,’ a thousand years.
Sounds like a song. Replaying all over and over
In my head. Sounds great, sounds like an adventure of
A life-time. Quoted, re-filled, adjusted to. Re-aligning myself
To vast existence, desiring to perform at status quo but something
Within me tells me my shoes are too tight to even continue in this
Journey we call ‘existence.’
(To be continued…)
Selah & Shalom
Part (02)
Writing Intensity, Writing Intensifies My Existence by Karla Reyes (1.1)
Writing, writing, writing.
Well hello there darling.
Damsels in distress.
Loosing shoes wherever they go.
It’s funny, I, never quite met people like you ladies.
Where are your husbands? It seems as if they’re lost into thin air,
Finding you dolls of a feather. Soft as the inside of a shaped rock like
A diamond, yet so empty. It starts with Jesus the church tells you. But I’d say
It also starts with a choice. Do you continue as a damsel, or loose their petals
Figure like feathers? Like the dove on the water. I see you as royalty, not garbage
To a form of beliefs that enslaved you. Welcome to the new world, doesn’t it feel
Amazing?
Selah & Shalom
Description:
My inspiration of Swans comes from the birds that rely on water to take care of themselves and it’s a safe environment for them to be in.
(Part 03)
Writing Intensity, Writing Intensifies My Existence by Karla Reyes (1.2)
Damsels in distress or damsels in a hurry?
You look like me, sound like me, yet
We aren’t alike at all. Or is it that I hide among
You all to keep the peace? Wake up and realize the glass
Slippers were all after all a fairytale. A washed up imaginative force
To be reckoned with. Come out of your caves, and show the world
What you ladies have to offer them. Don’t diminish your light to fit in.
It’s time. Dress up and acquire to gain momentum to continue running your race.
God has appointed you and anointed you to be Esther’s, Esther’s arise.
Selah & Shalom
Description:
This part shows the story of every devout women of God that decided to prepare behind the scenes to eventually come out and shine their light. May we be exemplary women like them.
(Part 04)
Esther, Awaken by Karla Reyes
Esther…..
They speak about you.
They acknowledge you.
They know of you.
They seem to acknowledge your beauty, your grace, your tenacity abstract
Approach. You didn’t choose this, you were crowned an Esther.
They said (inward voices), you weren’t going to make it or be freed. But you were,
You are, you kept going and going until you met other Esther’s that are just like you.
Different shapes and sizes, crowned as Esther’s too. Marvelous indeed.
Marvelous, marvelous, indeed.
Description:
Fun fact: ‘Marvelous’ was first used in the 1150-1500 period due to it being a French term: merveillus.
(Part 05)
Dear President of Year 2025 by Karla Reyes
You’ve overcame, you conquered, you were a Nebuchadnezzar.
You’re a replica of what it means to be humbled and yet rise up
When adversity comes along. I admire strength, family values,
Bringing weapons of warfare down so all peace on earth can come
Along. I admire the beauty of your wife, so elegant yet so mysterious.
She reminds me of Esther, queen Esther. Your daughter too.
My sisters in high places too.
Thank you for winning the presidency in order to bring peace on earth,
But until then, the church will rise in prayer and we will work the field
Like my ancestors who were cotton pickers. Joking, like certain people’s
Ancestors who were cotton pickers and I admire very much because I’m
Mixed origin like the woman from Song of Solomon, my skin changes colors
From one season to the next, I can’t quite know which skin tone I am actually.
Best regards, there’s giants you must conquer and prevail, just like the church
And everyone in authority has to do. I’m wishing well to you and your family
And I hope one day you can read the fact that you’re loved and crowned a
David. But in royalty apparel.
Selah & Shalom.
(Part 06)
‘Fight, Fight, Fight’ by Karla Reyes
In documentaries reported on YouTube platforms,
Seen on national television and heard about among every county there is.
Welcome to New York Donald J Trump.
We love you, we honor you, we bow down to our God for you.
You’re God’s masterpiece and I see you as royalty.
Mistakes forgiven by God and honor brought down to your name.
You deserve the world, so God has given ‘us’ the public to your leadership.
Lead well, and as you say: ‘fight, fight, fight!’
Thank you for my hallelujah days, we welcome you to the kingdom!
Selah & Shalom.
Description:
‘US’ as a replica of the United States of America. To show patriotism to the lineage of
our ancestries and what became of us all.
(Part 07)
Dear Children of Mine by Karla Reyes
“Dear children of mine,”
God’s Word says to us.
We look and look to find answers and
We try to disrupt our seeking moments to find pasture.
It’s not time to rest for eternity, it’s time to work.
We get distracted with church schedules that we forget to sit
At the feet of Jesus. There’s much work to do,
Rise up!
We must seek to find, and knock to find. But if the door is not opened?
Wait. Wait this one out and continue running your race. For there’s much
Work to do and God can’t do it all on His own.
Let God disrupt your schedule, you never know, He might just surprise you.
I salut you all and honor you all no matter age and ethnicity!
Keep going!
Selah & Shalom
Description:
For years, I’ve sat in church pupils, waiting for answers and couldn’t find much. It’s time to be that answer like Isaiah teaches us. This is a form of encouragement through poetry. I love me a lot of poetry! Enjoy!
(Part 08)
All I Wrote by Karla Reyes
All I wrote.
Wondering,
Was an inspiration or a mystery?
Will anyone hear me, see me, know of me, testify of me?
Will it reach at least one soul?
I wonder…
Selah & Shalom
Description:
I wondered if my pages would reach souls. As I prepared for the next season which is this one. I sat to write not knowing where to start and changes did occur but data wasn’t lost. Thank God for that! Thank God indeed!
Small Testimonial:
I was getting familiarized with softwares and saw it reach a low medium of audience. Needed to pray to continue, so I shut it down. A coworker of mine gave me the idea to write, so I continued to write. Even went it went as blog posts as content creation and I started that and hear I am now with this content beautiful journey. Grateful for the feedback(s)!
WordPress was my main go to.
Bluehost has been new to me but it’s going.
I recommend a 100%
(Part 09)
Election Day, The Kennedys, History, Blurr by Karla Reyes
As I write my ESL paper, I realized something about a
Particular book… It has the story of President Kennedy and his horrific day at a
Parade. Reminds me of Abraham Lincoln and George Washington. What’s to become
In Social Studies class about so many presidents list? We sit in a Department of
Education and all that comes to mind is when lunch time is coming. Are we going to
Be deprived of normal school days, is the system collapsing or are we trying to get to
A next level people don’t tell us about? Well I have something to say to everyone that
I loved and cared about, without getting drunk with wine, I will never forget the
Memories, the student mistakes I’ve made, but all in all the honor I’m entitled to
For every staff, student that sowed into my life and my company in a productive and
Professional way. I love you, miss you, and can not wait to see you guys and girls
Again (I can wait to see you guys again) and I’m sure God has great plans with
All of us and other schools and colleagues too. May we fight for peace and may we
Endure hardships and challenges for the greater good. It’s time to fight for our
Families, our schools systems, our future children and their children’s children.
Ephesians 6 would not be the only armor. Stay blessed and highly favored.
The kingdom of God awaits and this is just the beginning.
Selah & Shalom
Description:
I took ESL in NYC. I was a adolescent. Filled with recognition for how smart I was. I never was curious about world matters but I had a heart for my classmates. I was very risk-taker nature, I was very quiet but when I had to share my opinion, I would fall apart into tears, or just simply be strong to persuade someone of my opinion. My speech skills and writing skills developed from countless of papers per class, mind you I couldn’t achieve all A’s beautiful people. I was under the public system, not boarding or charter school. I was always in public school, except when I had to transfer to Christian colleges and or rising up in my home country I took Christian school and Bible class since I was born in a Christian environment. I’m still studying and I will always have a heart for writing and speaking. Since I was called to be a minister of God at such a young age, I always saw everyone per class the same.
This teaching will forever resonate with me:
The teaching of the fact that God created us all equal. All the same, no matter skin tones, no matter height, structure, depth of stories. We are all the same. I was raised in the system of the United States of America and I have no shame for it nor am I rising up against it. We need change, and change for the good.
-Luke 6:31 (preferably kjv)
-James 2 (preferably kjv)
I decided to use this last poetry material of this blog post to confirm that I am a work in progress. I am not perfect. I am not saying I’m fully saint because then I’d have to be in heaven. But we are being transformed from glory to glory and I’m grateful for my pastors, my shepherds, my guidances. I’m currently under a pastoral leadership for the-sake of my well-being and spiritual growth in ministry. I believe pastors and all pastors in the making need leadership over them. Even board of advisors. I have decided to continue the pages until new ideas come along and I can share it with you guys (my public audience), you can gladly follow the pages no matter where you come from because it’s for the public’s usage still, including this one. Hoping you’ll all enjoy the content, even non-believers alike. I know it’s fancy to be a licensed minister. But I’m not quite one yet. I’m not a child, I’m merely 25 years old and this year by the grace of God I’ll be 26 years old. I don’t have kids nor a husband. I’m not a widow neither.
I decided to put my efforts into the kingdom of God fully this year. I know it’s fancy to follow on socials, it’s not a requirement but ‘first come first serve table.’ I know I look young but far from it.
I am Caribbean roots but in the sense of birth. But I never quite sought the importance of being a native in the U.S. I congratulate any and every nominee that got into the White House on time and I hope and pray this reaches them.
But back to me,
I recently realized that my roots were originally from Europe and despite my lack of knowledge in Europe policies, government, law, divisions in states and its patriots, I’m not quite at peace with not knowing the history of Europe. So it’s best I get to learning And I’m starting to learn a thing or two. I recently learned that I have my family tree filled with Spaniards, Spain mostly. The translation Reina Valera 1960 reminds me of Europe language and its intricacy in remembering the things God has done for us. King James Version I found in a shelf at a store and I couldn’t stop reading the eloquent old English from it. I kept feeding and feeding myself scripture until I couldn’t stop. It was a healthy addiction per say.
Google has been a great source in knowing more of my roots and my people. I’m all about peace and love. I came to the United States as a Christian and I will honor my legacy of Christian patriots. I am by no means a celebrity but I am eloquent of speech due to the blood that runs through my veins. I do this with free will and I will honor my own free will by honoring God and His Words.
I know that it’s odd for a young girl to want to change history by lifting up the church. But it’s not that complicated. The church means well at heart and I’m here to speak for them. Even when I don’t have words to say, I hope my actions speak louder than words. I was lacking knowledge of what a true Christian patriot is like and I realized, God got me. Meaning God’s got this. He had my ancestors, He’ll carry me through.
I’ll share a scripture with you all. Here it goes:
-Hosea 4:6 (preferably kjv)
Sowing and reaping:
-Galatians 6:7
-2 Corinthians 9:6
(As mentioned above)
Hoping this motivates someone and don’t stop going no matter your titles and jobs in this life. There’s shoes to fill and I believe we all can add something to someone else’s life. No matter our purposes and callings, we have all been anointed and appointed for a specific purpose on this earth by God. Anointed meaning sent and equipped. Like my church worldwide says. It’s time to change history. For the good. We are the next or the continuing generation. For the well-being and health of everyone too.
Selah & Shalom
Funny thought, but yet not so funny but serious:
Let’s avoid the Great Depression period please and thank you! Let’s focus on new policies and procedures that are going to be taken place and pray through it as the church.
That’s our job as intercessions, ministers, workers of God:
-1 Timothy 2:1-4 (preferably kjv)
Let’s pray for new translations please and continue to steward the church for God’s glory:
-Matthew 5:14-16 (preferably kjv)
“You are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hidden.
Neither do men light a candle, and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick; and it gives light unto all that are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.”
**Men meaning humans in some of its context.
I’m currently studying Christian Ministries and it’s been great but I took a break to go under Business Management degree path for Associates Degree. However, I’m interested in taking courses, studying until I drop, and continue learning and being, doing productive things. Eventually as I go, I hope to meet like minded people who
share the same passions and desires as me so we can be world-changers together.
Inside and outside of church. So all the prayers? I may need. But also partnerships
And collaborations.
I’m all over the place but for His glory alone. For everyone’s good and well being.
Joking! It’s just how I am. Welcome to my world, enjoy.
God bless you all, until next time.
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